God in it...then it's life.

Life just isn’t what it used to be I wonder why; does my faith really need to be tested in this way?
I feel dead but in pain, I don't know where the heck I'm going and why I'm going there, feeling a bit lost from all this flesh talk overpowering my spiritual guidance. If I could kill myself and go to heaven I'd be gone by now trust me, I wouldn't have to sit and deal with all my bs which just seems to get bigger and worse by the day I wonder why?

I'm in one real war with spiritual wickedness in higher places and it’s all emotionally draining and tedious and depressing but I guess that’s because I'm trying to be superman solving my own problems which seem to be way bigger than me and are spiritual problems that much I can discern. When am I going to back to being the happy and silly, jolly me that I am?

I've been through some bad things this past three years and truly God was with me, can't believe I'm still alive and writing this when I should've been dying from cancer and this and that....He always kicks in when you need Him most hey it’s amazing. The bad part about all this is that I cannot vent because if I do then it opens the door to wicked spirits to enter my life so I always repent as I have a short anger fuse I don't mean to say things in anger it’s just the way I feel. When it comes to things of the Lord I must stop that and think before I speak or else I will be deeming myself unclean and that’s the last thing that I want to do.

The things God has said to me are amazing the problem though being that my mind likes to take credit of what the Holy Spirit is saying to me and that is bad cause I have to receive anything that comes from within as from God's Spirit but I'm working on that. This is why there is a bible so we can renew our minds upon the word of the Lord and align our minds to our spirit. One thing I can tell you is to never disobey what the Holy Spirit tells you to do or else you will find yourself in big trouble, never reason just do it!!

We have to have strong characters in order to influence others and to change people's lives. That means we have to go through some bad patches in order for our personality traits to be strengthened and to develop true power. We have to resist the devil and keep walking with God that’s all even in the event of something bad or tragic...our feelings never matter to the things of the Lord so we have to disable that little voice in our minds telling us how painful our body feels, how mentally incapable we are, how worthy we are, how smart we are, how proud we are, how good with God we are, how we should pray tomorrow and not at that same time. The devil can only ever attack you in your perceptionary/sensory/soul realm if we know just that truth then we will be able to distinguish the difference between who's voice is talking to us and if we should follow it or not. The bible say's we should resist the devil and he will flee from us James 4:7 it’s that simple now why are there some people who are devil possessed and so forth....I reckon it’s because they firstly do not resist him by verbally telling him that the blood of the Lord is against him and his demons, secondly they do not tithe and read the word of the Lord which gives us so many remedies to this particular situation. Did you know that we have been given the authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and the power to overcome all the power of the enemy and nothing shall harm us...we belong to the Lord, do you really think that He will watch us suffer by the hands of the enemy?

The Lord is good always and He always will be that won't change. He promised to protect us and to deliver us from the enemy's clutch. He won everything good for us at Calvary why can't we get that into our heads??
Do you want to know how God feels when you His child is crying ASKING, nagging Him for it as if it was never yours...Calvary says it’s been yours since been since. Believe what the Lord is saying period and accept it and stop asking for the things which you already have FULL OWNERSHIP of because I reckon it saddens Him to know that you cannot believe the things which He said He won for you. Start thanking the Lord asking Him to LEAD us to those blessings and things by His Spirit within us with peace and joy.

The Lord is all powerful, all mighty, all amazing, all knowing, all present, all merciful, all gracious, all loving, all compassionate, all faithful, all protective, all true, all the same forever oh how I thank you Father that you are no respecter of man thank you thank you that means that even I can experience the same presence of God that Moses experienced that’s what it means but why aren't we interested in living the way they did so we can also be deemed as God's friends and see Him and speak to Him anytime and have Him walk with us, wake up with us, eat with us, fellowship with us?

There has to be a desire that comes from you that says that "I will not be satisfied by anything less than holy in my life, that I want to walk with my Father in His wisdom and all power and love". In Pastor Benny Hinn's words "we need to build a relationship with Jehovah first then we can understand the all powerful Elohim then Adonnai" its true we need to know Jehovah intimately not seeking His power but a relationship and understanding between us and Him. When you get to know Jehovah He starts to reveal Himself as Jehovah Raffah, Tsidkenu etc giving you and showing you mighty acts and grace and joy and mercy.

The Holy Spirit is a person by the way...yes a person just like Jesus if you could see Him you would pass out begging for forgiveness for calling Him a "force" or "drive". He is alive and walking yes He is amazing too way too amazing for words yep He is the one who Baptises people and gives them their own unique heavenly language in which is used to speak to God DIRECTLY and guess what the devil CANNOT understand what is being said to the Father, Glory to God that instantly sparks the common knowledge branch in my head meaning that if we want to live a life of secrecy with the Lord were the devil knows not what is happening in our lives then we must every day speak to God in our spiritual language and furthermore ask the Holy Spirit to intercede for us and pray through us to bring about the will of the Lord in our lives. That's powerful right there we should use it every day and that’s pastors included okay no one is too smart to not renew daily his relationship and knowledge of God we ALL have to serve and do what He said we should and besides if you thought you were wise the word of God says that the world's wisdom is but foolishness to God...that’s intense right there that means we truly are foolish like sheep no wait worse than sheep at least they can think to follow their Sheppard’s voice and his voice alone.

I guess the Holy Spirit is talking to some of you who are reading this well I sure hope so because I'm literally just letting my fingers go and they're typing like mad, well thank you my Father in heaven for this wisdom present in here that will change the way people think about your kingdom and its ways and your call to bring order into this world not pain or strife. I wish people could seek your face and find out for themselves if you are pleased with the way they're living I'm sure they would change the way they do things but then again the Holy Spirit reminds me that Blessed are those who believe without seeing because that is what faith is wow did you catch that blessed are those who believe without seeing that means we will be rewarded for our faith in Christ oh what a day that will be when I receive my prize for all the times I put my faith in the Lord and resisted the devil and chose to follow the Lord and to believe everything that He said to me.

We are blessed and so lucky to have the Holy Spirit in our lives but some people shun Him off and do you know that the Holy Spirit can leave you...yep He can if you grieve Him and so forth and blaspheme against Him so you see how important He is to us and our lives? Do this now.....pray the Lord's prayer and after that confess your sins to God and forgive others before you ask for forgiveness for yourself then ask Him to send you the Holy Spirit back as you have offended Him and you need Him and be sincere and genuine remember God knows everything about you do not trick the Lord it’s a bad idea, God is not mocked period okay God is not mocked for whatever a man sows that he shall reap remember that, then open your heart up and start thanking Jesus for giving you the Holy Spirit and keep thanking Him...submitting to Him letting Him know that you’re not perfect and worthy to have Him but by the mercy and grace of your Father in heaven He was given to you as a promise and a guarantee of things to come..when you start to feel warm and fuzzy or maybe a few tears or trembling or a cooling wind you got to honour the Lord and thank Him for giving you His Spirit and then trust me you will feel like praying in a language you don’t get and the Spirit of God will take it from there now understand that things might not go like this I mean we are all different and the Lord speaks to us in different ways but learn to be spiritually sensitive to His voice and all the victory in the world will be present in your life.